I’m majoring in CS related-field, and I used to have tons of passion for it and underlying tech, and worked as full stack dev, but my mind was very different in a good way (better at logical/cognitive demanding tasks, creative, productive, etc). Things happened, and I just can’t stand living in society, experiencing all this materialistic world and feeling sick about it. I’m truly traumatized and I’ve been trying all available means to improve (so I’m not asking what rule 3 is against)… I can’t feel any passion for what I used to do… The meanings I gave for my life and hope are away. I don’t care anymore about digital world, industrialization, I just can’t. So my performance has suffered due to all this.
So, it can sound funny to read this, but I am considering living in a farm I have access to and do my own farming to eat, artesian well for water, constructing just a little home to live… I don’t exactly care about electricity. I would probably be happier just by burning some stuff to have light at night if needed and looking at the stars all alone until death.
What do you all think about this?
Yes. I quit my web development career despite a great job because ultimately we were tasked with creating value for shareholders. Fuck that. At the 10 year mark of my career I asked myself if I was any happier than when I started out. The answer was NO.
So I resigned, emigrated from UK to NZ, bought some land, and ironically now make more than I ever would have in an office as an employee, and have hectares of land in a beautiful spot which I steadily plant up into a food forest.
Life’s too short. See what your options are. You can live well rurally, but it’s not for everyone.