• TheBananaKing@lemmy.world
    58·
    10 months ago

    Any parent knows that you can’t go straight from doing-stuff to sleep; your brain needs some veg-out stuff to just process things. (I mean, I can sleep, but something unpleasant builds up if you don’t let decompression happen)

    By the time I’ve left work, done grocery shopping, made dinner, cleaned up after dinner, done laundry etc, it’s already late, and I’ve had no me-time to just decompress. (especially when chores drag out longer the more tired I get…)

    And apart from that, there’s a mixture of FOMO, resentment and just clawing-for-agency that makes me rebel against the only boundary I can shift, even though I’m the one that suffers for it.

    • IDew@lemm.ee
      2·
      10 months ago

      unfortunately, I share that same passion. Currently working on a 1000spm factory

  • sonovebitch@lemmy.world
    24·
    10 months ago

    Video games, because I don’t have time to play during the day.

    23:00 - “One last then I turn it off”

    01:45 - “Shit”

  • De_Narm@lemmy.world
    23·
    10 months ago

    I’ve studied for years and got a well paying job, I cannot just switch to something else without cutting my pay in half. But my work isn’t enjoyable, it outright sucks on most days. Going to bed early surrenders the only time of the day I can be happy and skips right to work again.

      • De_Narm@lemmy.world
        2·
        10 months ago

        What do you think I finance my happiness and wellbeing with? Having more ‘fun’ at work does not offset the new problems like worrying about rent or food. There is no happy middleground really, I mostly enjoy things that do not pay at all.

        • le_saucisson_masquay@sh.itjust.works
          1·
          10 months ago

          Sure we need money, but I personally always take a job that pay less but is fulfilling over a well paid one that makes me stressful / sad. At the end we spend most of the day working, it’s a matter of health.

    • VaultBoyNewVegas@lemmy.world
      8·
      10 months ago

      Yep. I could be reading a book and intending to finish the chapter I’m on and suddenly it’s 4 am and I’ve read 6 more chapters and about 100 pages to go so I might as well finish it. Also applies to watching a show or playing a game.

    • em2@lemmy.ml
      6·
      10 months ago

      Random thought appears. Welp, guess I’m learning all about it for the next several hours.

  • Streptember@kbin.social
    11·
    10 months ago

    I don’t want to die.

    What if I die in my sleep.

    What if the house catches fire and I can’t escape in time because I was asleep.

    There are so many other things I could be doing.

    I don’t have enough life left.

    What if I miss something important or cool.

    What if there’s a burglar when I’m asleep and it goes south and they murder me.

    What if I have an aneurysm in my sleep.

    What if I have a stroke in my sleep.

    What if I have a heart attack in my sleep.

    What if there’s a gas leak and the house explodes while I’m asleep.

    What if there’s a CO leak and I just asphyxiate.

    What if I just never wake up for no discernible reason.

    I wanna play more video games.

    I wanna browse the internet more.

    I don’t want to have the bad thoughts come back like they always do when I try to sleep.

    • nachtigall@feddit.deEnglish
      9·
      10 months ago

      Ah yes, the “what if I fall asleep and X happens, I should stay awake” anxiety. Fighting the inevitable…

    • hactar42@lemmy.world
      5·
      10 months ago

      I’ve dealt with that all my life. Recently it got so bad that I was waking myself up in the middle of the night with these thoughts. I just got a prescription for lorazepam and it has helped more than anything I’ve tried. I hate sleeping pills because they give me a hungover feeling in the morning. This one just shuts down the anxiety so I can sleep naturally.