I mean like awareness that, just under the surface, there are deep explorations waiting for the right time and place to emerge; things you’ve set aside or placed on the back burner but will tackle eventually/many you already have tackled.
Are you deeply self aware of these interests like some kind of list? If so, are these interests deeply connected in your mind to your past explorations and interests like some kind of road map or branching tree structure of thought?
Okay, this is going to sound really odd given the interest focus, but my personal identity.
I spent years knowing I wanted to explore myself more, feeling like there was something missing from myself, but kept shoving it aside. I had work to focus on, relationships, I’d have time to figure it out when things calm down.
Kinda just turned out I didn’t have the time I thought. Those feelings were waiting to burst out, and now I’m struggling to keep my head above my own waters.
For less introspective, the drums. Always had an interest in music, I’m semi-decent on a piano, but drums have always been this thing to me. Just never really had the space to feel like it was worth investing in a kit. They’re loud, kinda big, they’re probably going to sound awful while I’m learning.
It’s been a background “hey, this is neat” for most of my life, but recently I’ve found a deeper drive to get to where I can start.