He’s 28 😂 yeah he lowkey said I am acting crazy but I was just mad that he was lying for no reason.

Tbh, I can post anything I want, simply just don’t engage in my post if you don’t want to …

never meet anyone sounds scary

Ahahaha 0 actually

Well not necessarily, like today I wanted it but I can’t but I feel fine with that. Maybe it’s because I didn’t have sex much before in my relationship that now I have this urgency to fill it all in. And no, I have friendships with people just fine and even some guys my friends boyfriend brings and it’s fine, I don’t want to do anything with them obviously. And no no health issues other than being horny allot

Literally… like I couldn’t care less for his Instagram it was just the action of lying like for what 😂😂

fuck . I deleted it. They did a good job tho, basically what I was saying, but more formal lol

I know. But when I’m in a relationship with someone I don’t care for those things. When I was with my ex, I was so emotionally connected that like I didn’t care or like NEED it. We were also long distance (7hrs) so we didn’t see each other as much as we wanted but I felt okay. But now since it’s over and I’m single, I’m craving it much much more. I think I’ll take it easy tho, I will try to regulate my sexual emotions

I know this. The thing is, I’m not looking for a relationship right now because I’m not emotionally ready to be committed to someone. I am fully capable of being independant, I love doing things by myself. I prefer it than being with someone to be honest. But now it’s just the physical touch I crave too much. I don’t even want an emotional connection with this guy

Not necessarily. I’m not using sex as a pain coping mechanism like for my grief of my relationship. But I think it’s just I enjoy it so much that I want it everyday? I hope I don’t sound dumb right now but yeah, I just crave it too much I guess. Like I’ll get upset if like I don’t get it, that is probably what is bad.

Oh I’ve tried therapy and surprisingly, advice online seems to help me more.

Stop ily. I’m gonna use this

See that’s the issue… how do I know if I’m using sex as a coping mechanism or not? I stopped grieving the breakup as soon as I saw this other guy. We didn’t have sex the first time though but I was already like getting it off my mind so idk. But now I’m addicted to sex. Lol. And you’re right, I don’t feel at harm with this guy, maybe he’s an asshole but tbh idc, i mean, the sex is good lol. I’m giving him same energy tho so I guess im chilling

What if in the future I like someone so much but they can’t stand my past? My ex freaked out when I told him my body count lol. I’m a loyal person tho. If I am with someone I don’t give a flying fuck about anyone else but I think my ex’s reaction scared me till now. Made me feel shame

LOL I’m sorry, my brain was scattered typing this all out. I think I’m just confused on what I want

I mean yea tbh his instagram popped up and im like the fuck? Cuz I asked awhile ago and he lied and said he didn’t have. Personally I couldn’t care less about having his Instagram, but why lie lol. I told him like he doesn’t have to lie or anything because I don’t care and he said yeah ok I don’t wanna give u it get the hint lolololol. Maybe a bit toxic but the sex is good so part of me don’t care lol. And that’s true, I just worry about like STDs and stuff. I asked him tho if he’s doing anything with anyone else but he said no. But it’s hard to believe him now 😂

can I send u a dm?

I wouldn’t rush into another relationship tbh… I wouldn’t be able to… would just hanging out with someone worsen things? I’m stressing because part of me still feels like I’m cheating and I’ve developed this guilty conscience after what happened between him and I. a guy wants to go on a walk with me in nature, I told him I’m going through this and he said take ur time and he gets it but part of me thinks maybe going out will take my mind off of it but another part of me thinks that maybe it will just make me miss him more.

Yeah, not going to lie, today I felt super lonely and I felt bad I had removed one of those guys after they sent me money so I reached out and apologized to them. I feel bad for messaging them again. Is it bad that if they offered money again to me I wouldn’t say no? I wouldn’t have to remove them because no one is telling me to. But fuck. I feel guilt about everything now I’m over the body count thing. I’ll never let it affect me again. My worth isn’t based on a number and everyone was rihh ch r about it

No everything you say is true I didn’t think it was a big deal to share my Instagram like if someone came up to me people have an Instagramin real life. I always said no I have a boyfriend. I know I’m a very old person, especially to those I love, which is why it a lot to know why upset him from this. I also hadn’t been in relationship in years so I feel like maybe me and him both didn’t fully understand things the way they should be. and yeah, like the only reason I didn’t tell him about the unsolicited images was because I was disgusted by myself and I didn’t see apoint in sharing it with him, especially since I told him I was sending fake photos to the first guy. I thought he might already know could be sent more so the attention that was receiving/gaming, even though it was fake and I didn’t care for any of it. I know this might make me a bad person and I do regret sending fake photos, but I didn’t want them to send anything to me At the end of the day, I just wanted him to trust me and I felt so guilty for a whole month and everything heating up things I even did before I met him. I started feeling really guilty. I feel like I needed to tell him.