It’s one of those things I’ve never talked about with other people, the most I’ve really been exposed to journal keeping in pop culture is Doug Funny. People don’t talk about their personal journals.
Ever since I was a teenager I’ve sometimes felt compelled to write about major events, and over the years this has become the habit of keeping a journal that I write in almost every day, and sometimes I go back and read old entries. “What was I doing this time last year?” I also sometimes keep notes or such intentionally for future reference.
So, if you keep a journal, do you go back and read it? Why?
I did this recently. I wanted to refresh my memory on how I dealt with a personal problem several years ago that seemed to be coming up again.
Surprisingly, the details that stuck with me the most over the years were pretty different from the details I focused on in my writing at the time. I remember going through a lot of problems at that time, and I give them pretty equal weight in my memory. But my writing was hyper-focused on one or two things, while everything else was kind of in the background.
Unfortunately, the issue I felt was coming up again recently was one of those things that was in the background in my writing. So I don’t think the exercise was all that helpful for my initial goal.
Less surprisingly, my writing made me seem pretty cringe. I was expecting that, since I was looking back on a younger, dumber version of myself going through a hard time. But it’s still a bit strange. Like, I thought I was acting as rationally as possible at the time, and I give myself a fair amount of credit for that looking back on it. But when I try to read from a more objective perspective, my missteps and character flaws are a lot more apparent.
Sorta makes me wonder which of my present-day actions will make me say, “What was I thinking…” in another 10 years.