Half of the time I look forward to my death, it doesn’t scare me since I don’t see the real point of my life, what scares me is if my agony would be slow and painful.
But then what? I just stop existing and it’s like I fell asleep? Do I see light? Darkness? Nothing? What is nothing?
Nothing. Was in the hospital for a heart attack last year, my heart stopped for 8 seconds. I was 100% completely unaware. Was told later what had happened.
Over 4 minutes for me. Can confirm, no concept of time. I slowly became aware of a noise that turned out to be my own breath from chest compressions. Then I became present again.
Hope your doing well!
Some days are more challenging than others, I spent the last two weeks with the flu and WANTED to die. ;)