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  • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
    15·
    2 months ago

    Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I’ve lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.

    Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      8·
      2 months ago

      I wish I could work out like I used to when I was unemployed. I know it would give me more energy, but there is nothing left at the end of the day to invest into me and my health.

      Whatever, who wants to live a long life anyways? Just more rent payments, more scammers, more assholes in my life.

    • Miss Millie@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      3·
      2 months ago

      Try to stay away from stress reasons for a while if possible , hope you get better soon

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      21·
      2 months ago

      Ever try psychedelics? I fully understand they aren’t for everyone, but it helped me get away from the autopilot feeling in life.

      Unfortunately, most days I wish I could go back to autopilot. Being aware and present can be a curse.

    • Miss Millie@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      3·
      2 months ago

      That’s good to know… I have the same feelings whenever I go back home from college… like college is good but nothing is cozier or nicer than being able to rest after a busy day

  • flashgnash@lemm.ee
    6·
    2 months ago

    I currently feel like my nervous system is vibrating having just got out of the gym after preworkout

  • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
    6·
    2 months ago

    Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you’re well!

    • tetris11@lemmy.ml
      3·
      2 months ago

      Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don’t do very often.

      I’ve just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn’t enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we’re both on the road to healing.

      I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I’ve come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that’s why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.

      Time heals all, and I guess we’ve just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
        2·
        2 months ago

        Heya man, thanks for sharing. I hope you’re doing okay. That sounds tough, and it’s a hard realisation that love isn’t always enough on its own - relationships take work outside of love, and that has certainly felt like a disheartening realisation for me. It feels the world is a little less magic now, but that’s okay - there are better things coming for us both, that we will be better equipped to handle correctly with what we’ve learned from this. Happy Monday!

        • tetris11@lemmy.ml
          1·
          2 months ago

          Thank you for these kind words, and I hope you heal too or at least find that magic again somewhere.

      • Rayquetzalcoatl@lemmy.worldEnglish
        2·
        2 months ago

        Thanks! I actually did consider it but my landlady won’t allow pets, and if I’m honest I both can’t afford and am too disorganised to take good care of something living. Good suggestion, tho!

  • Tiefling IRL@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    71·
    2 months ago

    Since the last bout with COVID and subsequent bronchitis, I’m always exhausted and my lungs seem to hate me. It’s slowly improving by the day but that’s the worst bout of COVID I’ve had.

    Fully vaxxed, other than the recent one for obvious reason

    • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
      3·
      2 months ago

      I too suffer from long covid. I remember a time before when I didn’t constantly cough all day. Good times…

      • UltraGiGaGigantic@lemmy.mlEnglish
        21·
        2 months ago

        The pain of life does not last forever. We all find peace. For a few, in this life. For the majority, in the next.

        Only 40 more years of my shift left on earth and I can know peace for the first and last time.

    • Miss Millie@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      4·
      2 months ago

      It’s been a really long time since I bought / wore a skirt or a dress or even makeup… shame on me really

  • Lad@reddthat.com
    4·
    2 months ago

    On Tuesday I had a panic attack when I got in to work at 9am. It didn’t last long, only about 15-20 minutes, but I still don’t feel quite right even now. That’s usually the case with my panic attacks, it takes a while for me to reset afterwards. Sometimes weeks.

    Right now I have this tense feeling in my head, which causes my jaw to tighten up and get an impulsive twitch. Usually seems to happen when I’m feeling anxiety. I have an urge to chew on something soft.